Hey Summer
Finals are Officially Over.
Sweet Baby Jesus, we made it in Towson…
(Source: killingheels, via imsincerely-yours)
Sunday was Julian’s birthday, he would’ve been 24. All weekend I couldn’t help but think of the year before, on his birthday we actually made up after we had an argument that pretty much tore us apart.
I still remember the conversation we had that morning, and I still re-read the texts from that night. We went to his last house party, and he was on THEE WAVE that night…. I never would’ve thought a year later I’d be wishing him happy birthday, knowing I wouldnt get a response from him.. not because he didnt want to.. but because he cant.
It’s already been six months, and I still find myself going down memory lane every single day… im not nearly as sad as I was six months ago.. but certain things still have me on the edge of tears in a matter of seconds…..
My grandmother’s birthday is tomorrow, she and my little brother share a birthday, He’ll be thirteen (OMG) and she would’ve been 68. I usually do ok on her bday because it’s been four years, and we usually occupy our thoughts on that day with my little brother, but this year its different….
I swear I need them both the most right now, so much is going on and they were the only two people that could ever get me back in the right headspace, with advice I needed to hear, and without judgement….
I honestly dont know how to get out of this funk right now, I feel so bipolar and I hate it!… I just wish things were different.
One Sweet Day.
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
Now it’s too late to hold you
Cause you’ve flown away
So far away
Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive
And I know you’re shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we lost along the way
And I know eventually we’ll be together
One sweet day
Darling I never showed you
Assumed you’d always be there
Took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared
- This song just came on my Pandora, and almost instantly my eyes started watering, Ive been like this the past week…-
